Good morning everyone. I hope you had a nice weekend :)
Since my last post on Friday, things got a little crazy. Saturday I felt the opposite of better so no OCC distribution for me :(. They were afraid it was viral meningitis so they took me to a doctors without borders clinic in the city. I spent the entire weekend in bed, but luckily was moved to a bungalow which meant a room to myself, a bathroom in that room and the best thing ever- a hot shower. Saturday I took my first hot shower which would have been heaven except that I had my first real spider experience during that shower. But anyways, I finally made it out of my room today- A lot of you have emailed asking if I have malaria etc. I do not- praise Jesus. The doctors could never figure out what I had but it hardly matters, I stand in the healing that I know is mine, just by being a daughter of God. I woke up this morning with no fever which is great, first day since Thursday. I am still having a hard time swallowing and talking and I have a bad ear infection as random as that is so continue praying for me, that I will continue to heal and be up and out of my bed in no time!
Confession time: this may come as a shock to some of you but for me, it is easy to get discouraged when I am sick. Crazy, right? I know it makes me a human to confess that I get discouraged at times, but its true. I wouldnt say that I was questioning my purpose here or Jesus but I began to lose perspective. When all you are thinking about is the pain in your body you can hardly see "the joy set before you". I am so glad Jesus still went to the cross, endured everything he did, spent 3 days in the grave, FOR US. He did it because of the joy set before him. I am not Jesus and I am not saying that this mystery disease is equivalent to the cross. What I am saying is that I am so thankful I can look to him as my example, as my confidence, that I can feel really crappy and miserable but still have a quiet strength that knows 1. My God is in control 2. He has promised to never leave me 3. I am healed 4. No weapon formed against me shall prosper 5. Its for my good and His glory.
Was I thinking all these things as I sat in a Haitian clinic on Saturday? No, I was thinking oh my gosh if they try to stick me with anything I am going to run away except I physically cannot run. (I was not thrilled about being there). But the Holy Spirit, as promised, is always faithful to comfort, to bring to mind the word of God, to strengthen, to intercede on my behalf. What a promise and what a reality.
John 16: 33 " I have told you these things, so that in Me you may have [perfect] peace and confidence. In the world you have tribulation and trials and distress and frustration; but be of good cheer [take courage; be confident, certain, undaunted]! For I have overcome the world. [I have deprived it of power to harm you and have conquered it for you.]
He has conquered it for us. Already. Its done. What Good News. What hope giving news.
Your prayers, emails, tweets, etc meant so much to me and I am beyond thankful for your partnership in faith. I know some amazing things are going to happen in the next 5 months and no sickness, heat, hunger, or whatever will prevent that. But praise God for the Bread of Life because I aint eating too much other than that around here lol. Join with me in faith today that they will buy bananas in port au prince :) I really want a banana. Love you guys!
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