I think at this point its safe to say that I am officially the worst blogger ever. I have good thoughts, I know my grammar, I just can't seem to blog these days. Or in any days past that I can remember. This may end up on my new years resolutions list directly following my one and only goal for 2015: finishing a tube of chapstick in its entirety before losing it. I'm not completely convinced I've set a tangible goal for myself (talking about the chapstick here) but I think its worth while to attempt nevertheless.
As 2014 concludes, here is the mini run down of the year, that FLEW by. Does anyone else feel like this? I mean it literally just started, right? It seems like yesterday that I moved here and now its already been a whole year. In the blink of an eye I will be saying this as we countdown to 2016. Life is fast.
Anyways, 2014 was great. Quite possibly my favorite year and most challenging simultaneously. If you know anything about Haiti then I don't need to say much else for you to understand exactly what I mean. I grew. I struggled. I grew some more. Struggled a lot more. Visited America twice. Went to Ecuador and the Dominican Republic. I turned 25. I started playing the guitar. I got a little bit braver and a little bit chubbier. I made new friends, some really great new friends and lost touch with others. My hair got really long. I learned so much about my job and grew closer to my kids. I got better at Creole. I crossed a few things off my bucket list and probably added 10 more things. I hiked a volcano, saw a llama, went to South America....and I think that may be it. I cant remember anything else.
Moving to Haiti this year was the biggest leap of faith I have ever been called to. It was scary yet thrilling and the greatest opportunity thus far God has placed in front of me. That's what I remind myself of on the hard days. I remember the sleepless nights, the tear filled prayers for a world in the dark. And then God sent me, to be a light. Some days I forget that. That my sole job is to let the Light in me shine through to others. And I forget (usually when I am hungry hot or tired) that I am living in an answered prayer, a dream fulfilled. Because of His grace and goodness and mercy, for me and those around me. That is what led me to stay another year. When my flesh said GET OUT NOW my spirit said stay. When I wanted to quit and give up or believe small things don't make a difference, He reminded me otherwise.
I am really excited about next year. I have so far to go but I am going to think on how far He has brought me instead. Because, after all, HE, not me, is the Author and Finisher of my faith. I've come to learn something this year. Faith isn't so much about the things I can't see, its more about what am I choosing to see. Am I setting my eyes on things above when the things around me are either invisible or discouraging? Is my sight Kingdom focused instead of self-focused? When I make that choice, then I can be the believer in Hebrews, that "By faith overthrew kingdoms, ruled with justice, and received what God had promised them. They shut the mouths of lions, quenched the flames of fire, and escaped death by the edge of the sword. Their weakness was turned to strength. They became strong in battle and put whole armies to flight. Women received their loved ones back again from death." I may not feel strong, look strong, or really actually be strong at all. But He is making me strong in the midst of it all. That is what I count on.
Psalm 65:11- "You crown the year with Your goodness, even the hard pathways overflow with abundance" What a promise. That the inevitable hard pathways are filled with an overwhelming amount of His grace, mercy, goodness, triumph and presence.
So here's to 2015. May it be the year of abundance, bold faith, for me, for you, whatever country you are in, whatever dream you are believing for. Let's pursue the kingdom together. Happy New Year.
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