3 days

I am not really sure what to write. I feel like I need to say something because I leave in 3 days. But that fact alone makes me want to crawl under my covers and not talk to anyone. In order to avoid being a complete Debbie Downer and ruin my last moments here, lets take a minute and review all the happy things the past 6 months has brought my way. This should make me feel better right?

1. the beach. lets talk about how I open my door every morning and the first thing I see is the ocean, like 10 feet from my door. how its the last thing I hear at night and provides the most beautiful sunsets I have ever seen every night after dinner. amazing. i might have to move to a beach after this.

2. fresh fruit every day. watermelon, mango, pineapple, all the good stuff, everyday. pre cut for me, all i have to do is eat it.

3. babies. adorable sticky kissing crazy precious sweet and all mine. no matter what horrid thing they have just done, five seconds later i cant even remember and i am ready to kiss them all over.

4. relationships. i have met the best people here. i could write paragraphs on all of them, how they have all been instrumental in growing me as a person, challenging me, encouraging me, loving me, teaching me....i think this is making me sad instead of cheering me up. i have to stop.

I know I am sad right now, and that it is ok to feel that way. I also know that God only has even better things ahead, because that is what his word promises me. It is hard to see because I don't know what is next, but I know he is already there, smoothing out the path, arranging things and I trust that. He is the ultimate planner and has it covered. I can rest in that. I can rest in his goodness. I can rest on his beautiful beach, thank him for this season, these people that will be forever in my life, and get excited for what is next. thankfully, he lets me cry about it all at the same time.